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[12:58pm on 072806] |
she tied her hair into a knot
to create the noose she was
too chickenshit to use
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[10:09am on 062106] |
sooooooooooo... rena has been a lazy litle cute bug. this, this is bad.. i gave you all lack of renaness. i know you all were devastated.
i moved. to the cities. i don't like it. need friends!!!!!
srsly it's lonely as hell here. =(
on an unrelated note: is it just me, or did ashlee simpson get like really effingly adorable pretty?
also, how effingly cute is this?
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[12:24am on 060906] |
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i just want to point out, that even after a LOOOOONG STRESSFUL DAY OF GETTING SHOTS...
rena is still cute like a bug.... i repeat, cute like a bug.
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[3:52pm on 060706] |
rena got a new keyboard!!!!!! RENA GOT A NEW KEYBOARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now i can use the question mark button ??????????????????????? see <------------------------
this is such a pointless entry, lol. oh well.
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two seconds later....
i saw the omen yesterday, i was kinda disappointed, they showed most of the good parts on the commercials.. so meh. but listening to my mom freak out and scream with popcorn in her mouth, sooooooooooooo worth it!!
also, i kinda miss my friends, i kinda figured that after i graduated, i prolly more than likely wouldn't hear from them again, which for the most part suckkkkks major penis. some, i would say, i'm kinda glad i don't have to see anymore.... like, jada the evil dictator.... sasha, the evil dictator's puppet, whom might i add, stole my graduation money!! i mean, i know it was only 25 dollars, but how low can you get? and to blame it on steven just because he took her captain morgan is just plain dumb and stupid.. and brandy, oh my god, don't get me started on her, she tries to hard to be what she calls "goth" when she has no idea what the hell she's talking about.. she tries to impersonate carla way too much, and listen to what jeremy listens too.. she's now doing weed, smokes 24/7.. and tried to be a bitch to me waaaaaaay too hard. the end.
*scraches head* lol, that paragraph was supposed to be about how i missed my friends. ugh, there is way too much negativity in my life.
anyway, im moving outta my house for 3 months on the 13th, go me!!
and go daily visits to the MALL OF AMERICA!!!
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[11:16pm on 060306] |
so ive actually decided to update this cute little journal of patheticness of mine.. (can someone say "go rena!!")
*sidenote: my question mark button thingy is broken. ha! i spilled pop all over the keyboard.. oops.
anyway, onto the whole update on me nonsense.. i went on a garage sale mania today!! i swear to god, any garage sale.. BOOM!! THERE WE WERE!! ha, it was fun to say the least, i didn't really buy anything.. but i bought my little sister some fashion boots and a hat that made her look like jennifer lopez... but less hot, and fat.. and short. *nods*
and right now i'm watching rent with my little cousin who is absolutely.. positively.. completely obsessed with the movie!! i think she's in love with angel. >.> but then again, who wouldn't be o,0
and i miss having a boyfriend.. yeah.. two months of being single.. fucker broke my heart and my hymen. how's that for a sitcom storyline?
(juss copied and pasted the "?" from a convo i'm having with some duuuude named dave) :D
also, i kinda miss my friend rob, well i wouldn't say we are friends, more of a "people who know each other" type of dealy.
i kinda want to call him, but i don't even know anymore.. i'm not sure if i want to put myself in those types of situations, ya know.. the kind where they just fusterate you and make it so hard with.. anything. i don't know.. not even sure if i make sense.
well, i don't know.. i saw x-men 3 on wednesday. so that a plus..
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[11:38pm on 052506] |
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i'm not sure what to write about, i dont even think i want to write about something. but i can't think, so it's making everything even more hard.
i want to wish the world, wish the world that never changes, wish things that make me greedy so i don't have to think about the african babies starving and just be another one of those "bitches".. those "snobby rich bitches." i wish too much.
i think i want to be a journalist, in this reality anyway. in another reality, i'm a fairy goddess with the prettiest silver wings, i've always hated gold, and i'm happy. i've always wanted to be happy.
and i'm scared, i'm scared that one day everything i write, everything i say, will turn into nothing, besides some useless words on a livejournal website. i wanna write something beautiful.. and raw.. and so vulgar that it's beautiful. i wanna write about losing my virginity, or how i would bite my boyfriend to make him want to hit me, my ex-boyfriend... i'm a weird character, and i feel like you should know me. but i don't want you to me. i want you to get me.
i don't know anymore.
ps. hi anna. your still my favorite ninja homie blah blah cool person. =D. sorry about not writing lately. i'll write about why tomorrow.
pss. um.. i just forgot what i was gonna place here.
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[5:09pm on 051506] |
so... i'm going on a diet. yep, rena the talking whale is going on a diet. i'm gonna be one of those fat girls who say they are fat and tell people they are fat but love hearing from those people when they lie and say "you are so not fat."
yep, thats me. lol
but seriously, the diet issue, to be honest.. i don't care if i'm fat, i wrote that up there to be comical, how did it work out?
i'm doing the whole diet thing to be more healthy, i don't wanna have to deal with the whole issue of obesity that loves to spread its wild disease over native americans, i just don't. i wanna feel fresh every morning, i wanna feel like every day is the day to wake up to. i just want control... on something. ya know?
now i'm starting to feel like i'm sounding like i'm gonna soon turn bulemic, and even though i don't really have an issue with people who are, i just don't wanna be that, or sound that for that matter.
and also, it's my family.
i'm beginning to hate them. my whole life, i was the little girl who loved to eat. and seriously, i'm not afraid to admit that.. because i was. it didn't bother me so much when i was little, in fact.. i took pride in it. it made me different than the other kids, it made me special.
and then i grew up...
and being called things from my parents, it's just not so cute anymore. it's not something i can laugh at, or take pride in. it makes me now feel outcasted, like i'm not good anough to be their child. like i'm just this fat slob who sits around the house and does nothing but play on the computer. and that's not who i am at all, i know i'm not. they aren't any help either, they're the type of parents who happen to think nuitrition isn't so important, there is never any fruit, hardly any vegtables, and whatever the fuck we do eat, it's either microwavable.. or something you have to cook outta a box.
i just.. want control. on something.
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[9:12pm on 051406] |
he said "i'll always use you," as he lied between my sheets. he lied between everything, even between his lips.
don't ask, i just thought it up and had to write it somewhere.
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[3:04pm on 051306] |
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WHO HAS TICKETS TO SEE THE RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS AND MARS VOLTA?!!!
that's right!! i doooooo!!!
my seating view!! and believe me, ive had this section before, and it is SO MUCH BETTER than this.
*lusts* and im going with the hottest boy like ever.
now all i need to do is pick out a genius plan to make his girlfriend disappear.
*angel face*
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[9:10pm on 051006] |
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i swear, i swear i'm gonna comment on people's journal once i get off my lazy ass. i swear.
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